birthdays

Eva’s third birthday

Eva’s third birthday

Eva’s birthday is coming up. April 6th. She would have been three. Every few months I play a thought experiment, and try to imagine both our lives if she was still here. I imagine the big things, her crawling, her hearing sound with cochlear implants, her and I living together… Read more

Happy 2nd birthday, Eva

Happy 2nd birthday, Eva

What does Eva’s birthday mean to me? It means a day when I can think about who she was. I can remember her smile and her smell. I can remember her grunts of determination as she rolled herself across the floor. I can think of the way her whole body… Read more

Happy birthday, Eva

Eva’s birthday started with a 6am alarm and a walk down to the beach to watch the sunrise and think about Eva. I had gone away with some friends and as the sun came up we lit candles and thought about Eva. During the holiday I thought repeatedly about how… Read more