Pregnancy

Autumn – hues of technicolour depression

Autumn – hues of technicolour depression

We’ve had a terrible summer. The weather never seemed to realise we were waiting in our shorts and singlets, and it held out on us for months. We had days, not weeks, of sunshine, and then suddenly, it was March, and Autumn was upon us. Eva was born at the… Read more

Rare Disease Day – my speech

Rare Disease Day – my speech

Last week I gave a speech for the New Zealand Organisation for Rare Diseases on Rare Disease Day. It was just 3 days after Eva’s anniversary and I was a bit worried about how I would cope. I managed to get through till the last paragraph before I cried, so… Read more

Parents sue over birth defect – can we blame them?

A New Zealand couple living in Australia are suing the medical professionals who allegedly failed to identify the condition for $2.5 million in damages. Their daughter, Aria, who is now two years old was diagnosed with Aicardi Syndrome after an MRI scan revealed the condition. Aria has impaired vision, hearing loss, scoliosis,… Read more

Feature in the SOFT UK newsletter

Feature in the SOFT UK newsletter

A few weeks ago I was contacted by a representative from SOFT UK, which is a charity that provides information and support to families affected by trisomy 13 (Patau’s syndrome), trisomy 18 (Edwards’ syndrome) and related conditions. They provide support through the many stages families may find themselves in from… Read more

The true meaning of beauty

The true meaning of beauty

In the last few weeks I have been taking some active steps to help myself. I could feel, and can feel, a hint of depression crawling back into my chest. I feel tired constantly. I’ve stopped running. I’m drinking too much. I want to change that. I can’t rid myself… Read more

Two years ago – where the story started

Two years ago – where the story started

Two years ago I was going to sleep after a frustrating day of expecting labour, and getting not much. I had been induced at 8am that morning with prostaglandin gel. By 8pm that night the minor period-like pains had eased and I was looking at my first night in the… Read more

The right decision

The right decision

A few months ago a woman reached out to me through facebook. She was pregnant and the 20 week scans had revealed real problems with the baby. I won’t give too many details, because this isn’t my story to tell, it’s her’s and her family’s. But I will say she… Read more

A normal sadness

Months ago, I wrote about my lack of a birthing plan here. Having never had a baby before, I didn’t know what I wanted. All I knew was I didn’t want anything off the table in terms of pain relief and I didn’t feel too worried if it ended in… Read more

Feature on Real Imprints

The lovely people over at Real Imprints asked me to write an original piece about the Peanut and me. I crammed a year of blogging into around 4,000 words and submitted it. You can read the first half here. The second half will feature on Thursday. Spoiler alert, we learn the Peanut’s… Read more

As long as it’s healthy

“Do you have a preference for a boy or a girl?” The pregnant woman pauses. Considers her belly and gives the typical answer. “I don’t mind, as long as it’s healthy.” It’s the standard response. I know I gave it myself many months ago before I knew the Peanut was… Read more

As long as it's healthy

“Do you have a preference for a boy or a girl?” The pregnant woman pauses. Considers her belly and gives the typical answer. “I don’t mind, as long as it’s healthy.” It’s the standard response. I know I gave it myself many months ago before I knew the Peanut was… Read more

Not the post I wanted to write

I do not want to be writing this post. It has been 11 days since I gave birth to the Peanut, and I have thought a lot about how much I wish I could be writing a different post. I was supposed to be sleep deprived and potentially emotional, but… Read more

The final countdown – and it's much shorter than we thought!

This baby is not going to wait any longer. While my liver function results were fine, the second part of the test showed my bile salt levels were elevated so the obstetrician is pretty sure I have cholestasis. When I got the call she said, “so I mentioned at our… Read more

The final countdown – and it’s much shorter than we thought!

This baby is not going to wait any longer. While my liver function results were fine, the second part of the test showed my bile salt levels were elevated so the obstetrician is pretty sure I have cholestasis. When I got the call she said, “so I mentioned at our… Read more

A fire drill, electrocardiogram and threat of early induction – not your average doctor's visit

A fire alarm, the threat of early induction and two hours in the hospital for what was supposed to be a quick catch up were not what I was expecting when I went to Hutt Hospital this morning. But as my journey has already proven to be a bumpy one,… Read more

A fire drill, electrocardiogram and threat of early induction – not your average doctor’s visit

A fire alarm, the threat of early induction and two hours in the hospital for what was supposed to be a quick catch up were not what I was expecting when I went to Hutt Hospital this morning. But as my journey has already proven to be a bumpy one,… Read more

Unemployed and aimless

It’s 7am. Mr. Million has left for work. I am alone at home for the first day of my almost 10 months of maternity leave. On the one hand, this feels great. On the other, I sort of just want to cry. I have big plans for the next few… Read more

Getting out while I can still fit between the desks

Returning to school this year came complete with the usual anxieties you would expect for a second year teacher after a long break. Would I have nice classes or would they hate me and try to make my life miserable? Would I have forgotten how to do it? These anxieties… Read more

Ammunition for those who can’t, or won’t, go along with “breast is best”

After my little rant about the judgement of pregnant women and new mothers I’ve received a lot of feedback from other mothers who can sympathise. It seems we are all walking around being told how to do things and judged if we don’t follow the orders, while our internal monologues… Read more

Ammunition for those who can't, or won't, go along with "breast is best"

After my little rant about the judgement of pregnant women and new mothers I’ve received a lot of feedback from other mothers who can sympathise. It seems we are all walking around being told how to do things and judged if we don’t follow the orders, while our internal monologues… Read more

Your advice is welcome, your judgement is not

The idea that when you become pregnant you are public property is a cliche, but it’s true. You go from being an autonomous individual who can essentially live their life free from judgment (on most decisions) to being someone who seems to have a sign on her head saying “judge… Read more

Ill-fitting togs and an aerobics instructor

Adjusting to an ever changing body and the things it can and cannot do has been an interesting part of pregnancy. Before I realised I was pregnant I could confidently call myself a runner. I ran 3-5 times a week, with distances between 4 and 8kms. The previous year I… Read more

Big changes – I don’t even know who I am anymore!

Before being pregnant this ad would not even have registered on my radar. Now, I find myself smiling and bopping along to the song. Big changes – I hardly recognise myself (and that’s only partly related to only being able to get my pre-pregnancy jeans up to my knees these… Read more

Big changes – I don't even know who I am anymore!

Before being pregnant this ad would not even have registered on my radar. Now, I find myself smiling and bopping along to the song. Big changes – I hardly recognise myself (and that’s only partly related to only being able to get my pre-pregnancy jeans up to my knees these… Read more

As a non-believer, I think I’ll just thank my obstetrician

Today marked our eighth scan to keep a watchful eye on our Peanut. The scans are spreading out in time now, so it has been three weeks since the last one. This means that for at least ten days between this scan and the last I forgot there was anything… Read more

Happy to be a wallflower this time

As we lined up outside the elevator to take our tour of the hospital it felt like I had never been there before. A month or so earlier I had sat in a chair in an obstetrician’s office and been told our baby might have a heart condition after vomiting… Read more

No naked pregnancy belly cast parties in this gal's birthing plan

Some girls dream about their wedding. They have every detail mapped out before puberty and know exactly which song will be playing as they walk down the aisle. I wasn’t one of those girls. In recent months, I have begun to wonder if these same girls also had their birthing… Read more

No naked pregnancy belly cast parties in this gal’s birthing plan

Some girls dream about their wedding. They have every detail mapped out before puberty and know exactly which song will be playing as they walk down the aisle. I wasn’t one of those girls. In recent months, I have begun to wonder if these same girls also had their birthing… Read more

The good, the bad, and the pregnancy

It’s said that pregnancy just suits some people. They thrive in that state while others can’t wait for it to be over. I think it’s safe to assume the final month levels this out and every mother just wants to get rid of the puffy feet and the inability to… Read more

To test or not to test

The 12 week scan is the first major milestone in a lot of couple’s pregnancies. It marks the end of the first trimester, the end of the risky period for miscarriage, the end (hopefully) of the worst of morning sickness, and the first chance to see your baby on screen,… Read more

Dehydrated but well-brined – anyone got a tissue?

A newly shaven man emerged from the shadows to screams and cheers from a group of beautiful women. “Oh my gawd,” rang out from the women as their hands flew to their mouths in amazement. The man sheepishly twirled to show off his new look. A mirror was brought in… Read more

The shopping list descreases

It turns out I wasn’t the only one doing research. At our follow up appointment the doctors were almost as stumped as us. When we found out we had an appointment with a genetics person, my first instinct was that she had a syndrome or disease which was causing the… Read more

What’s normal anyway?

There’s a lot they don’t tell you about pregnancy and parenthood. I had no idea bleeding noses and headaches were standard practice. Or that morning sickness would feel like the worst hangover I’ve ever had spread over 7 weeks. They didn’t tell me that I would become an expert in… Read more

What's normal anyway?

There’s a lot they don’t tell you about pregnancy and parenthood. I had no idea bleeding noses and headaches were standard practice. Or that morning sickness would feel like the worst hangover I’ve ever had spread over 7 weeks. They didn’t tell me that I would become an expert in… Read more