I didn’t have my phone on me yesterday. The usual vibrations and alerts didn’t reach me.
During period five, when my year 13s were working hard on their writing, I checked my personal email. It was full of alerts that people were tagging me in posts on Facebook. I wondered if there was some kind of chainmail situation happening so I checked one of the emails.
What I saw was a friend congratulating me for appearing in a Washington Post article on top parenting podcasts. Sitting in a class full of 17 year olds, I let out my breath with a “holy shit”.
I clicked through and there it was. The One in a Million Baby right under the podcast that inspired me to begin the podcast in the first place, The Longest Shortest Time.
I was blown away. My podcast does ok. I have reached over 7,500 downloads. But even though that number feels significant to me, I’m well aware that in the great scheme of podcasts, The One in a Million Baby is small potatoes, so to get this kind of recognition, well it feels pretty damn good.
I don’t earn any money from the podcast. In fact, it costs me money to host it and run it. I don’t do it for money, I do it because when I put out an episode I feel like I’ve accomplished something. I do it because sharing these stories feels important and worthwhile to me. I do it because I get people telling me that it’s helping them in some way. I do it because I want to stay connected to the special needs world and make a difference there.
Even with all those reasons, sometimes it feels like I’m talking into a vacuum, like there’s no point to it and I’m wasting my time. It requires a lot of my time and sometimes I just feel tired and I ask myself why bother. This boost was just what I needed to solidify my feeling that this is a good thing and worth feeling tired over.
I wanted to say thank you to my listeners, but especially thank you to the parents who have entrusted me with their stories. It’s not an easy thing to bare yourself so openly to the world, and they did that and trusted me to tell their stories respectfully and accurately and I appreciate them so much for that. They are all amazing people with amazing children and their stories deserve to be told.