A taste of things to come

By on August 24, 2015

I have audio! It’s not much. A quick teaser of the intro I’m planning to play in each episode, but it’s something. Next weekend I am having a pre-interview chat with my first subject, and then we are going to get down to recording. I have a few small kinks to work out with the Read More...


The Platinum Fundraiser

By on August 19, 2015

I’ve written before about that platitude that special needs parents get told that they will meet “some of the most amazing people” through being their child’s parent. The first time I heard it I rolled my eyes and scoffed. What possible friendship could make this situation alright? I thought. It felt like that kind of Read More...

Spring is in bloom

By on August 18, 2015

It’s almost Spring. And after what has felt like a rough couple of weeks I got a couple of nice, Springtime surprises. The first was discovering that the kowhai plant that was sent to me by my cousins was flowering. I am terrible with plants. I either over water or under water, and I never Read More...


Our summer

By on August 14, 2015

A colleague told me he had to drink a lot of water after reading yesterday’s post, to replenish his tears. So I looked through my photos and decided to share something happier. Our first and last proper holiday together. Over the summer Eva and I drove to New Plymouth for an old friend’s wedding. Eva Read More...


Eva's things

By on August 13, 2015

I picked up Eva’s things today. When she died, the coroner’s office took her bedding, her sheets, her blankets, anything in and around her cot, for testing. Most of it was replaceable. But there was one blanket, a crocheted woolen brown blanket, that I wanted back. I used it from the first night Eva was Read More...


The flip side of scary

By on August 11, 2015

All the equipment is here. I now just need to test it out, record my first interview and learn to edit! The podcast is still weeks away from its launch, but it feels so close. And I’m nervous. I know I put myself out there multiple times a week to whoever wants to read this Read More...


It's almost ready to go

By on August 8, 2015

The podcast is so close to becoming a reality. I am waiting on just one tiny piece of equipment and I am ready to go. The set up is almost complete. After staring at my mixer for over an hour, and then turning to YouTube in desperation, I now know which buttons to press and Read More...


This vulnerable infant

By on August 6, 2015

Eva’s post mortem arrived today. It’s been over five months since she died. A letter came with the full report, instructing me to open the document in the presence of a friend or family member. I didn’t take heed. Thankfully, Eva’s paediatrician had already told me the crux of it. She had explained anything that Read More...