Christchurch, cochlear implants and some giggles

We are back from our excursion to Christchurch. The news is good. They are recommending bilateral (both sides) cochlear implants. Provided the surgery isn’t too lengthy they will be doing both of the implants in late March next year, before the Peanut turns one. They were very careful to point… Read more

Remaining hopeful – cochlear implant assessment

Tomorrow, the Peanut, me and my Mum will fly down to Christchurch, and on Friday we will meet the Southern Cochlear Implant Programme team and have her cochlear assessment. I am equal parts excited, nervous and apprehensive. I know better than to get my hopes up too high that this… Read more

Happiness breeds happiness

While we were in hospital last week a friend who I haven’t seen for a long time visited the Peanut and me. She had been following the blog so knew the basic run down on the Peanut, but had never met her. She arrived shortly after I had been told… Read more

A week of extremes

This week has been busy and mixed, to say the least. It started out with my last post being featured in The Mighty, a website which celebrates diversity and overcoming challenges. The piece was one I struggled to publish, because I knew it didn’t portray me in the best light.… Read more

I’m looking forward to the drive

Looking back at those two months I spent without the Peanut I feel like I was being torn in two. I could never pin my brain down and constantly flitted between rational and irrational, love and pragmatism, optimism and despair. I would settle on something for five minutes only to… Read more

I'm looking forward to the drive

Looking back at those two months I spent without the Peanut I feel like I was being torn in two. I could never pin my brain down and constantly flitted between rational and irrational, love and pragmatism, optimism and despair. I would settle on something for five minutes only to… Read more

Laughing – a milestone

Today I heard the Peanut’s first honest to goodness giggle. I was tickling her before her bath and she let out a breathy, continuous giggle. I’ve heard the beginnings of this before where she would sort of hmmm of enjoyment as if she was about to start laughing but it… Read more

A summer of surgeries

As I looked over my shoulder at the Peanut,  already asleep from the gas and looking very small on the adult sized gurney, I wished her problems and issues had just been spread out a bit further afield. Did they really have to all come to one baby? The Peanut,… Read more

A normal sadness

Months ago, I wrote about my lack of a birthing plan here. Having never had a baby before, I didn’t know what I wanted. All I knew was I didn’t want anything off the table in terms of pain relief and I didn’t feel too worried if it ended in… Read more

Wordless Wednesday

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A preview of things to come

Now that things have calmed down a bit and we are getting into the day to day life of being a baby and Mama, I’ve started thinking a bit more about the future. At the moment, the Peanut and I are living with my very good friends, and possibly two… Read more

Real Imprints 2

Here’s the second half of my piece for Real Imprints.   Thanks, Lindsey, for the opportunity. Read more

Feature on Real Imprints

The lovely people over at Real Imprints asked me to write an original piece about the Peanut and me. I crammed a year of blogging into around 4,000 words and submitted it. You can read the first half here. The second half will feature on Thursday. Spoiler alert, we learn the Peanut’s… Read more

Not the way I do

For all my positivity and feeling optimistic about the Peanut and life in general, sometimes some things just hit me in the guts. It doesn’t have to be a big thing, and in fact it often isn’t. My whole life music has been a huge part of the way I experience… Read more